Sunday, July 31, 2005
キーウィくん：Mmm...not too bad i think. i was quite happy with it. but i was so angry that i forgot my tape this morning!!今朝は本当に大変だった！！だから、今、つかれていますよ！！ウィウィさんおはっぴょうはどうだった？やはり上手にできたよね！！？
わたしのはっぴょうはだめだったけど。。。i still can laugh at it. i really regret...さいごのはっぴょう、でも、一番わるかった。＾＾なきたい。
キーウィくん：im sure it wasn't too bad. i think you probably set yourself very high standards. all your other presentations I`ve ever seen (history on in this class, J-league soccer one (しんはつばい〕、your one in Boccelari 先生's class (with so what?) last semester) were very good. and i dont give meaningless compliments. :) so, im sure it was だいじょうぶ。are you going to D-block for dinner tonight?
ウィウィくん：本当にありがとう。i think exactly the same. i really want to make my statisctic like this (drew a graph with a consistenly increasing quality of happyou from the beginning of AIKOM til the end of the program), but i just couldnt, and actually i havent done my maximum efforts...
キーウィくん：もちろん行くよ。食べ物を持ってくるね。。。何をもってくる？I like your graph. hehe. i think my presentations have got better maybe. since i've done presentations in 日本語、doing it in english doesnt seem hard at all anymore. いいね！！Don't lose your confidence ウィウィちゃん！！actually like this though (drew another line in the graph, indicating a stable quality of はっぴょう）so, dont worry.
i just realised i have 5 レポートto do in the next 22 days!! できないかもしれないね。too much work and not enough time.
Friday, 1st of July 2005. found this conversation on the back of a page about Nishida Kitaro（ごめんね先生！！）...22 days before he returned to the land of the long white cloud. will remember you as i know you from such conversation.always so nice.^_^thanks a lot キーウィくん！
Friday, July 29, 2005
yeah...This is the girl who really like to say the slogan of Malaysia..hehehe
since the first time we met in the program, she has been so helpful to me...i remember when i told her i havent got my keitai since i dunno anything about it...
and the next night she just bring me her AU brochure, and of course i never return it back to her...Appuru san, gomen ne...
It was the time when she always said: is iiiiiiit??hehehe, with a very マレーシアぽいのはつおん。おもしろかったよ！
one thing is obvious from this chinese malaysian friend is her style evolution! hehhee, still have her pic when she looked so south east Asian...but now!!!hehe...she's 日本人mitai yoooooo!!!
but the nice thing is that she's still nice and friendly^_^
honestly, i got terrible stomach ache before i delivered my farewell speech in the completion party,...and she was the one who kindly escorted me to the restroom, and gave me some 'minyak kapal' (which made my body shop's oceanus fragrance disappeared , hehe) and some pil chick-it-teuk-an..hehhehe...中国のくすりはとてもよかったね。。。
one thing i regret is that we didnt get the chance to visit Ghibli museum 2gether...maybe in the future Applesan??
who always say that sentence?
yeah, no doubt...futari AIKOM sei from Malaysia, they are really proud to be Malaysians...hehhe, ii yo!!
Fauzan returned Saturday morning, 23rd of July...Malay kei Malaysian...one of my two brothers in faith in AIKOM...
what i will always remember about him is that first impression can cheat you! hehhe, gomen ne Fauzan Chan, i thought anata wa chotto unfriendly when the first time we met,..but then, I know him as a very funny person!^_^
he played guitar as well, but he better play Chinese song to accompany my poem than just play the urusai Nirvana's Nicotine..hehehe, urusaiiiii!!!
remember also the time when we played Ping-pong with Kiwi kun..hehhehehe, 'dont Lose your confidence!!!' just full of laughter, exactly the same with the laughter we had in J1....the coolest class of AIKOM 2004!!!
ok, Fauzan Chan, iro iro ganbatte, keep the faith and...Allahuakbar!!!!
hehe, nani sore? yup! that nick name will always remind me of my lovely warui-kankoku-jin-no-o-tonari-san...
Shin Hye ya!!
she's now in australia, she said she's quit busy choosing the subjects for this semester...and australia is cold, with strong wind, which makes her hair messy...thats what she told me last time she emailed me...
Pu ha ha!!:)
thats what she'll say when she's happy and satiesfied for herself, for example...when she succeed wrote 1000 words about kuki shuzo for the super-zenzen-wakaranai modernization class...hehehhe,...
Wie-Wie...Kii peninSula Ni ikoooooo...!!
thats what she always said evreynight in front of my door few months ago...
Wie-wie yaaaa!! banana tabetai!!
hehehe, she really likes my 'pisang aroma', well, i am glad that we cooked it 2gether on my birthday Shin!^_~yeah, you are a good wrapper!! hehhe, but i am still the master lah!!
see you, i will feed your chicken!!
hai, ShinHye Yaaaa!! sono kikai matte iru yo!!
so, until we meet again...send me a lot of mail, and keep smiling ^_^
thanks a lot Shin!! for everything!!
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Besides making people easier to justify a war, having undermined the diversity of feminist discourse as well as many aspects in the feminist non-violent arguments, this argument has a serious problem. In respect to the just war theory as well as the feminist discourse, I would like to propose my own argument about what position should be taken by the feminist, and women in general.
To strongly oppose to war and other uses of violence is the most reasonable position for women. It is not an essentialist point of view or solely biological reductionism (as accused by Elshtain) when the bulk of the feminist thinkers said that women are more likely to choose the non-violent and peace efforts. Rather, it is a result of the women’s long empirical experiences in the history of mankind. During the waging of war, women often forced to carry the heaviest burden. They lost their husbands and sons, suffered severely as refugees, had to take care of the children and the elderly in harsh condition, targeted for rape (which is very commonly happen during the conduct of war and often systematically organized by the military as a war strategy), and suffered from the domestic violence when their husbands returned from war in mentally-ill condition as the memories of the war had disturbed their mind. As this situation has taking place for centuries and internalized in women’s mind in general, it is not surprising when women become the most eager anti-war segment of the population.
History has also shown that most of the people who are involved in and conduct the war and violence are men, which it is even become a stronger force for women, to take the opposite position against them, in order to create such a balance in the just war and non-violence scale. In creating this balance women then seek for an alternative tool to struggle for justice. As non-violent action has been universally acknowledged as the `weapon of the weak` and those who opposed against the conduct of war often accused to be a `wimp`, they just reverse this stereotype by using non-violent actions, in contrast to hard weapons used in war. In many cases, this `weapon` as proved to be as effective as, or even sometimes more effective, than the violent methods.
This is not to say that any kind of war is intolerable, because in certain circumstances, the conduct of war is sometimes forced to be the most suitable strategy. When the conduct of war is based on the reason of justice and the non-violent efforts have really been exhausted, even women can tolerate the conduct of just war, of course with some strict conditions. 
Elshstain’s cynicism on the non-violent position of most feminist thinkers is a fallacy. The argument seemed to exaggerate the importance of patriotism, while in my opinion, patriotism and nationalism certainly often become the cause of unjust war. I agree that justice is difficult to measure, but in many cases, patriotism is often clearly not the manifestation of justice. Moreover, as argued by Jill Steans, patriotism, has been a creation of patriarchal spirit in the modern nation building process, has long been a source of oppression toward women. War’s prominent role in the creation of the modern nation states has settled up a ‘Patriarchal State’, which gives privileges to the so-called ‘Warrior Hero’ or people who contributed in the war who are mostly male. Consequently, this ‘Patriarchal State’ excludes the women, making them the second class citizens. Basically, I believe that regarding some certain circumstances, feminist and women can tolerate a just war, not because this war can be justified on the notion of patriotism, but by the demand of justice and the exhausted non-violent efforts.
However, I should emphasize that the so called ‘just war’ is really rarely take place, moreover in the recent times when the interests of the superpowers often disguised as the freedom and justice for all people and unilateralist violent action is more preferable than negotiation and multilateralism. The danger of military subordination toward civilians, which makes civilians (especially the women and children) more vulnerable casualties also make the requirement of just war more difficult to accomplish. In short, in the conduct of war, unjust war is almost absolutely unavoidably taking place.
Based on this situation, I strongly agree to maintain the feminist’s anti-war and non violent position until the very last limit, as it might be the best contribution that women can give not only to protect their fellow women (and children, often inseparable part of women who are also vulnerable from the negative impact of war) from vulnerability during the conduct of war, but also for the human being in general. This kind of alternative force is needed to create a tighter restriction toward the conduct of violence and war, in order to avoid the unjust war and to minimize the just war.
Actually, women’s special relationship with peace and non-violent nature has even been considered as one of the most important contribution of feminism in the studies of International Relations. This discourse, once again, not solely based on the stereotyped perception toward male’s violent nature and women’s peaceful and nurturing nature (as most of the essentialist feminist’s critics said) , but based on the actual needs and the real situation. Many people might see it mostly as an academic debate, but it is expected to encourage women, to give their best contribution to the human civilization.
 Jean Bethke Elshtain explained this in the essay titled ‘Is There A Feminist Tradition On War And Peace?’ (Handout of ‘Just War’, Summer Semester 2005, College Of Art And Science, The University Of Tokyo)
 The post-war trauma and domestic violence relationship recently gained more attention during the US’s invasion on Iraq January of 2002, researchers from Yale University and the Veterans Affairs Medical Center in West Haven, Connecticut published a study in the American Journal of Public Health which found that the 21% of the American men involved in the combat possessing the problem of current spouse or partner abuse. (http://www.tf.org/tf/featured/10-11-02domesticviolence.html)
 For further reading, Michael Walzer’s ‘Arguing About War’ (Yale University Press, 2004) provides the most recent discussion about the criteria of ‘Just War’, including some latest criticism and development of the Just War doctrine.
 Jill Steans explained this in her ‘Gender And International Relations: An Introduction’ (Polity Press, Oxford, 1998), particularly in the chapter titled ‘The ‘Warrior Hero’ And The Patriarchal State’
(written for 'Just War', Summer Semester 2005, The University Of Tokyo )
Sunday, July 10, 2005
wie have to say goodbye again.
this time to the most brilliant girl i met in AIKOM.
she always proudly said her name: Song Ji Yeon.
and she's also friendly!
many things i learned.
being smart doesnt mean that u should ignore
being a book-lover doesnt mean that you should neglect learning other thing like playing musical instrument.
being a nearly a perfect person doesnt mean that you should forget to smile to everyone^_^
being a brilliant and talented girl doesnt mean that you should disrespect your parents...
(as she said that korean's spirit is filial piety)
in short, Ji Yeon is the really empowered asian woman!
thanks for all the lesson gurl!
wish you a great success in the future! i know you will be erai hito!!
hope to see you again Ji Yeona, even i have said: Annyonghikaseyooooo...^_^
Thursday, July 07, 2005
so long, farewell, aufwiedersehen, goodbye...
today i said those words to one of the very first good friends i made in Japan.
ya, Esteban going home this noon.
hard to say good bye.
i said to him, i will remember the laughter we share.
ya, we laughed too much when we were together in many chances.
he always make me laugh.
the way he spoke in nihon go is very funny^_^
sometimes i thought it was artificial...
i said i will frame our memories
and it will be one of my favorite pictures of my lifetime.
i said goodbye.
he said dont cry.
we should thankful because we met.
so i didnt say good bye.
i said see you.
and he reply: yoroshiku.
see you again Esteban!